Well it’s a while since I last put my fingers to the keyboard in order to update my blog.
Reasons – to be honest there are more important things to be doing with my life than sitting at the computer communicating with people without any faces and getting no one-to-one contact!
Additionally trying to get medication sorted has taken the best part of a year and it is still a matter of waiting and seeing how the latest tabs work. So far I am keeping my fingers crossed. I’ve had a bit of anger, some low times, but also at long last more determination to achieve those creative aspects that had just seemed to have disappeared into the mists of time.
Believe me I have been creative but at subjects that don’t give you that buzz! I’ve come to the conclusion that my parkie friend has for many years been playing a few minion tricks. Yes, it is so common with this disease to loose enthusiasm or incentive to do things, but mine appears to have steered me away from all those occupations and hobbies that made me who I was!
Now I want to stand up and shout ‘This is me, this is who I am’.
Photography has always been a great love of mine, together with writing. Since digital has been around there has been something lacking – so I am going to have a go back doing film photography. Those who know me are well aware that it was once my professional occupation. But then I suppose disallusion crept in because there was this feeling inside that I was not a good enough to make a living from it. The same happened with writing, despite having written various articles and short stories that were published.
The one really great thing about having Parkinson’s is that I don’t really care now. Yes, I always will try to do a damn good job – otherwise what is the point. But if people don’t like what I create, so what, there will always be those that do!
No more self doubt! I am who I am. The new journey begins……